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Tak rela ku mengejar cinta yang hampir kelam

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Tak mampu ku menahan peritnya perpisahan

Tuhan hapuskan semua kenangan

Tak ku menduga kau berlalu pergi

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GAYONG

"Jangan ditepuk susu di dulang,

Anak harimau tak dapat menyusu,

Jangan pecah rahsia hulubalang,

Nanti harimau hilang kuku"

"Jangan ditepuk darah di dulang,

Anak harimau mancari ibu,

Jangan pecah mentera hulubalang,

Nanti harimau hilang asu"

"Jikalau ada dulang di tangan,

Jangan biar jatuh terhempas,

Jikalau ada senjata di tangan,

Jangan biar orang rampas"

"Pecah Gayong di dalam dulang,

Dulang hanyut di lautan tujuh,

Perpecahan Gayong perpecahan sayang,

Di suatu masa kembali berteguh"

Segayong,

Sekendi,

Seperigi,

Sepeminum,

Sejalan,

Sejadi,

Sedarah,

Sedaging,

Sepadu,

Gayong? Siapa Gayong? Aku Gayong, Engkau Gayong.

Gayong? Dimana Gayong? Di sini Gayong, di sana Gayong.

Apa Gayong? Genggam, Angkat, Yakin, Waras, Ngeri.

Wind

Cultivate your hunger, before you idealize
Motivate your anger, to make them all realize
Climbin' the mountain, never coming down
Break into the contents, never falling down

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve
Sneaking out the classroom, by the backdoor
A man railed at me twice, though, but I didn't care
Waiting is wasting for people like me

Chorus:
Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry 'cause you're so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end

(Repeat)

You say, "Dreams are dreams"
"I ain't gonna play the fool, anymore"
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul"

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom
Friction or fear makes shadows of nothing
Shadows of nothing

Cradel Of Forest : Akira Yamaoka, Joe Romersa

There deep, deep in the forest night children dance the waltz
They laugh whispering hand in hand, just like children like to do
Their eyes, what are they looking for, white dress flutters the beat
Their song starting to make some sense, only if you're listening

Dance, dance like the butterflies, shadows appear right before my eyes
Sounds echo the obsurd, hard to explain something that I heard

Now hear the forest talking, insects and birds
Does the scent of soil and beast
Breath the life into the animal you hide
It's a great illusion one never knows
When you think you're really alone
Feel the eyes of someone looking in on you

Again, see how the children play, red moon colors the trees
Their feet, innocent rustling sounds, playful dreamlike fantasies

Dance, dance like the butterflies, shadows appear right before my eyes
Sounds echo the obsurd, hard to explain something that I heard

Now hear the forest talking, insects and birds
Does the scent of soil and beast
Breath the life into the animal you hide
It's a great illusion one never knows
When you think you're really alone
Feel the eyes of someone looking in on you

Now hear the forest talking, insects and birds
Does the scent of soil and beast
Breath the life into the animal you hide
It's a great illusion one never knows
When you think you're really alone
Feel the eyes of someone looking in on you

------------------------Portuguese----------------------

Lá no fundo, no fundo na noite da floresta,
Crianças dançam a valsa,
Elas riem, cochichando de mãos dadas.
Como crianças gostam de fazer.
Seus olhos, o que eles procuram?
Vestido branco agita as batidas,
Sua canção começa a fazer algum sentido.
Só se você está escutando...

Dance, dance como borboletas,
Sombras aparecem, diante de meus olhos.
Sons ecoam o absurdo,
Difícil de explicar algo que eu ouvi.

Agora ouça a floresta com seus insetos e pássaros,
Será que o aroma do solo e a besta despertam a vida
dentro do animal no qual você esconde?
É uma grande ilusão, ninguém nunca saberá.
Quando você pensar que está sozinho, sinta os olhos de alguém observando-o.

Mais uma vez, veja como as crianças brincam,
A lua vermelha colore as árvores,
Os seus pés, sussuram sons inocentes,
Oh! Sonhos divertidos como fantasias.

Dance, dance como borboletas,
Sombras aparecem, diante de meus olhos.
Sons ecoam o absurdo,
Difícil de explicar algo que eu ouvi...

Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day

I walk a lonely road

The only one that I have ever known

Don't know where it goes

But its home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street

On the Boulevard of broken dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk alone I walk alone[4x]

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

Til then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I'm walking down the line

That divides me somewhere in my mind

On the border line of the edge

And where I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's

Fucked up and everythings all right

Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive

And I walk alone

I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk a...

My shadows are the only one that walks beside me

My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I walk this empty street

On the Boulevard of broken dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows are the only one that walks beside me

My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

Till then I'll walk alone!

Tomorrow can be too late

If you're mad with someone  , and nobody's there  to fix the situation... you fix it. Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend. And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late.

If you're in love with somebody  , but that person doesn't know...  tell her/him. Maybe today, that person is also in love with you. And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late.

If you still love a person who you think has forgotten you...  tell her/him. Maybe that person has always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today  , tomorrow can be too late.   

If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it.  Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late. 

If you really have friends  who you appreciate...  tell them. Maybe they appreciate you as well. And if you don't and they leave or go far away today  , tomorrow can be too late.

If you love your parents and never had the chance to show them... do it . And if you don't and they leave today,  tomorrow can be too late.

kisah teladan

Di zaman Nabi Musa a.s ada seorang pemuda yang memuliakan ibu bapanya. Lalu Nabi Musa a.s pergi ke rumah pemuda itu untuk melihat apakah amalan yang dilakukannya itu. Setelah memberi salam pemuda itu menjemput Nabi Musa a.s masuk ke dalam rumahnya. Baginda pun duduk di ruang tamu rumah pemuda tersebut.

Namun pemuda itu tidak melayan Nabi Musa a.s dan hairanlah Nabi Musa akan tingkah laku pemuda itu, dia terus masuk ke dalam bilik kemudian membawa seekor babi betina keluar dari bilik itu, dia mendukungnya dengan cermat, kemudian memandikannya. Nabi Musa sekali lagi kehairanan dan berbisik sendiri di dalam hati baginda ” apakah ertinya semua ini?”

Babi itu dibersihkan dan dimandikan dengan baik. Setelah itu babi itu dilap hingga kering serta dipeluk dan dicium kemudian dihantar semula ke dalam bilik tadi. Selepas itu pemuda itu keluar semula dengan seekor babi jantan pula dan lebih besar sedikit dari yang tadi. dan diperlakukan seperti babi yang sebelumnya juga.
Selepas semua kerja selesai barulah ia melayan Nabi Musa a.s. Lalu Nabi Musa a.s bertanya kepada pemuda itu tadi ” Apakah agama tuan hamba?” . “Islam agamaku” jawab pemuda itu ringkas. ” Habis kenapa kamu membela babi?” tanya Nabi Musa a.s lagi.

Wahai tuan hamba kedua-dua babi yang aku dukung, dan aku mandikan itu tadi ialah ibu bapa kandungku, Oleh sebab mnereka banyak melakukan dosa besar, Allah telah menukarkan rupa mereka kepada rupa babi yang hodoh. Soal dosa mereka dengan Allah itu soal lain, itu urusannya sama Allah. Aku sebagai anak tetap melaksanakan tanggungjawabku kepada mereka berdua. Hari-hari aku berbakti kepada kedua orang tua ku itu sepertimana yang tuan hamba lihat tadi”.

sambungnya Setiap hari aku berdoa semoga Allah berikan rupa ayah dan ibu muka rupa mereka yang asal, tetapi Allah belum lagi mengkabulkannya, tambahnya lagi
Maka ketika itu juga Allah berfirman dan menurunkan wahyu kepada Nabi Musa a.s “Wahai Musa inilah orang yang akan berjiran dengan kamu di syurga nanti hasil  baktinya yang sangat tinggi kepada ibu bapanya. Ibu bapanya yang sudah buruk dan hodoh dengan rupa babi pun dia tetap juga berbakti. Oleh itu kami naikkan maqamnya sebagai anak soleh di sisi Kami”.

Allah juga berfirman lagi yang bermaksud ” Oleh kerana dia telah berada di maqam anak yang soleh di sisi Kami, maka Kami angkat doanya. Tempat ibu bapanya yang Kami sediakan di neraka telah kami tukarkan / pindahkan ke dalam syurga”.

Allahyarham Dato Meor Tengku Abdul Rahman bin Tengku Daeng Uda Mohd Hashim DPCM

Nak belajar biar kenal guru,
Guru yang membawa kita kenal siapa diri kita,
Bila dah kenal diri sendiri,baru kita kenal Pencipta diri kita,
Rugilah siapa yang dah letak benteng siap2 di depan,kerana salah jumpa guru yang betul,maka taknak teruskan perjalanan mengenal diri,
Rugilah...sangat rugi.
Cari biar sampai jumpa.
Bila dah jumpa,kekalkan pertalian dengan guru.
Sebab guru itu penunjuk jalan kita mengenal Pencipta.
Allah uji kita jumpa guru yang salah sebab Dia nak kita belajar.
Alhamdulillah sy dah jumpa.anda bila lagi? :-)

JADILAH SEORANG YANG BAIK, MESKIPUN ENGKAU TIDAK DILAYAN DENGAN BAIK

Antara ungkapan Ibn al-Qayyim yg paling indah pernah aku baca:

"Seseorang kawan rapat tidak berkongsi kesakitan dgnmu..seorang kekasih tidak menanggung keperitanmu..seorang rakan karib tidak menggantikan tempatmu untuk berjaga mlm..

Ambil beratlah tentang dirimu sendiri..jagalah ia..pimpinlah ia..jgn kamu layan peristiwa yg berlaku melebihi kadar y sepatutnya

Pastikan dgn sebenar2nya..ketika engkau bersedih, tiada yg boleh menenangkanmu kecuali dirimu sendiri..ketika engkau tewas, tiada yg boleh memenangkanmu selain dirimu sendiri..kemampuanmu utk bangkit semula tiada yg memilikinya selain dirimu..

Janganlah kamu cari nilai diri kamu pada pandangan manusia..carilah ia dlm jiwa kamu sendiri..bila jiwa itu tenang,  terangkatlah kedudukan..bila kamu telah kenal diri kamu, maka apa yg dikatakan kpdmu tiada kesan mudaratnya lagi..

Usahlah kamu tanggung beban keresahan hidup di dunia kerana ia adalah milik Allah..Usah jua kamu pikul beban keresahan mencari rezeki kerana ia adalah dari Allah dan usahlah jua kamu pikul beban keresahan mengejar masa depan krn ia adalah di Tangan Allah..

Yg perlu kamu pikul hanyalah satu beban keresahan sahaja, iaitu bagaimana hendak melakukan perkara yg meredhakan Allah..krn bila engkau meredhakan Allah, Dia akn meredhaimu, mencukupi bagimu dan memadai utkmu

Jgnlah kamu berputus asa dgn kehidupan yg menyebabkan hati mu menangis..sebaliknya, katakanlah: "Ya Allah! gantikanlah untukku dgn kedua2 kebaikan di dunia dan akhirat..

Kedukaan itu akn hilang dgn satu sujud..manakala kegembiraan akn dtg dgn satu seruan..Allah tidak akn sekali-kali melupakan kebaikan yg telah engkau buat atau keresahan yg telah engkau tolong hilangkan atau mata yg hampir menangis yg engkau tolong ceriakan..

Hiduplah di ats prinsip: Jadilah seorang yg baik, meskipun engkau tidak dilayan dgn baik..bukan kerana mereka..tetapi kerana Allah suka kpd org yg baik".

Moving on

Life isn’t a fairy tale and the story moves on, and when you left I cried for three days straight and then I went out and kissed the first boy I saw. Okay, that was a lie. I actually went out and ate chocolate lava cake, and then I watched two romcoms in a row with the lights out and a box of tissues by my bed. 

But today, for the first time in a long time, I woke up without your name on my lips. And I got up and got dressed, and I didn’t think of you, and everybody says it takes time but I didn’t really believe them until now. The words it gets better has very little meaning when it can’t possibly get worse. And so, instead of writing shitty poetry about your eyes or metaphors with your smile, I looked in the mirror and said,get over yourself, and went for a run. 

But here I am again, writing about you. Sometimes I think that’s all I ever write about. But today I woke up without your name on my lips, and that was something, at least. And I still remember the first time we met and I still remember the first time we kissed, but I can no longer see the precise shade of your eyes or capture the sound of your laugh. 

I don’t know if that’s better or worse. All I know now is that time, like all things, keeps moving forward, whether you want it to or not. 

Hope so :-)

Nikah

Sebaik2 nikah :-)